Hello my dears! 

If you're here to check out on my cheesecake i'll have to disappoint you! Cos it was a flop! Lol. I am sorry. But J ate it!! Guess I do not have much flair in baking (or cooking). Gosh, there goes the idea of capturing the heart of the man by capturing his tummy! I will have to work on that or work on other better/easier areas. Hahahaha. 

Anyway, J was really sweet to me last sunday when he came to pick me up before our date cos it was raining (rain eventually stopped and he still came, took him an hour)! And another time he turned the air-con in the car up without me realising when i said i felt warm. One of my friends did say I am extremely easily contented. But well, it's these lil things that will mean alot. 

Chinese new year is just a couple weeks later. This year will be much different, since the family has become smaller. It's scary to know that they have left for about half a year already. How time flies. Seems like it was just yesterday. Still think of them, miss them, and sometimes cry in the midst of it all. 

My exams are nearing again!! And that will mean that I will have to join the working society soon! The best time of my life is ending! And a new chapter unfolds. Till then, i'm thinking I will not be back to fill you in with anything, for I'll be really busy with this last lap of school. I'll see you again!! :)

We have decided to picnic this Friday! Whoopee! I love picnics! Gonna be our second time picnicking. Wow how long ago was the first time? Hmmmm, like when we first started out. Anyway, I've finally gone to the supermarket to get all my ingredients for my cheesecake and did it - you'll know what I'm saying if you've been following my previous post. This is practically the first time I'm making a cake! Other baking experiences were of cookies during secondary school home economics time and my other failed attempts at those instant mixes. So fingers crossed and hope my cake turns out pretty and edible. Only took about one and a half hour to complete it, if it tastes good then this recipe is really easy to do and then I should recommended it to all you peeps! Haha me dreaming away...

I'll upload a picture of my cake if it turns out good! So keep a look out!!
xoxo :)

My grandparents have passed away for a few months now, and both mum and i have the same feelings, we miss them even more as time passed. Time does not do anything to deal with the pain of losing your closed one (but in our case, two closed ones).

It's like so much has changed in our lives. Mum no longer needs to rush housework on Saturdays and rush over to the supermarket to get my grandparents their weekly supply of groceries. And I, now have classes on Saturdays after which I go home and stay home for the rest of the day most of the time. No more Saturday meetups at grandparent's, which also means we meet up lesser with my aunts and cousin. 

One happy thing is that we get to keep the house, since Mel and YQ gave up their Hougang BTO house and are planning to purchase my grandparents house. It's going to get renovated though (The house is still going to change alot I can see it coming) but yea the thought that the house is still ours is a console. 

Mila (my granny's maid) still keeps in contact with us, she meets my mum once every month since she now gets two sundays off at the new employer. Mila has now become one of our very good friends and we are still very grateful to her for taking care of my grandparents for the last 3 years of their lives. 

Okay, more of myself now! Going to be celebrating my 2nd anniversary with Jasper next week! It's so exciting how fast time passes and we have been together for almost 2 years already. Have not decided where to go and what to do but I'm hoping to surprise him with a little something. Gonna try making a cheesecake cos I know he's been wanting me to do it for him and I haven't :p So I've been looking up recipes on easy and yummy cheesecakes on the web and decided on this White Choc Berry Cheesecake. It's description reads: A stunning no-cook pudding bursting with summer flavours - great for relaxed entertaining. Sounds so good right? Gonna go look for the ingredients tmr hope I don't screw this up. Even if i do Baby you still have to eat it k! Hahaha. 

Today is horrible day, again. I've not told so many lies in a long time. To my dear mum whom I've told lies to, I'm sorry. I didn't want to make you worried. And trust me, I can really handle things on my own, I really prefer not to let you know or talk to you about it. So, for the moment, please bear with seeing my sullen face once in a while. I do have the right to be upset at times right? I can't be happy all the time.

Made pork cutlets today. Just had to add some corn starch to the marinated pork done by mum already and then batter them with biscuit crumbs. An easy task, but I did it while crying. Sorry my dears, if any of my tears fell into the pork while I was doing it. I took extra precaution not to let that happen, and if it really did I am really unaware of it. But I tasted it, quite good yea?

Well, about the lies... Told my mum I was meeting him for dinner tonight. It was the initial plan really, so I didn't plan for all the lies. But it turned out that we weren't meeting already, I was really upset and didn't want to show that in front of my family. So I told them that I was meeting him, but in fact I went for a movie alone. YES, ALONE! I've always wanted to try that. Just didn't expect it to be in this sort of circumstances. But well, I really did it! Buying a ticket for one is not that weird, it's the walking-in-alone to the theatre and having the other movie-goers in the theatres stare at you that's weird. Seriously, there's nothing wrong with watching a movie alone right? Many people do that. It was quite a nice experience, except that the couple sitting beside me kept cuddling and throwing kisses at each other.

My dear boy, told you to stay home because I felt that you feel coming out with me is a chore. I'd rather you stay at home and enjoy your day than to travel all the way to meet me and then feel troublesome about it. You don't have to do it if you're not willing to. But do you realise it? Maybe I'm too sensitive. But there are many signs of it. I'm sad that things have changed. Please don't apologise for something you don't even know about, or think there's nothing wrong with. Really, knowing that you care is what matters so much to me. Sometimes I really hope that you would surprise me by being at the other side of the door when I open it, or send me a sweet sms. But, nothing. It's all dreams.